How then shall I live; a question I am confronted with every
morning. There was a time in my life
when I never consciously posed the question to myself but merely allowed by
appetites and senses to lead me forward.
I had certain virtues but my main cause for being was to increase my
physical pleasure and decrease my physical pain. It was above all else narcissistic. There are other ways to live and One Way I
now live in and strive toward. Why I am
continually confronted with that question, how then shall I live, is because I
was so committed to my former way. Until
I examined (forced actually by a 150hp Evinrude) my life and saw how abase I
actually lived I was never truly able to see with clarity the wonder of the
Other Way. However that is truly sad for
by that time I was in a “far off land having squandered my youth.” The unfathomable grace of this story is “grace did abound” toward me “even while I was yet” fully narcissistic and that
is why I start every day asking myself how I will live today? It is to remind myself the Only Way is a way
of completed and total surrendered gratitude.
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