To Know

Peace and quiet, an hour our so alone, it is the beginning of every day for me.  By faith, I believe it is God’s time to spend with me.  Believing there is a God seems like the only rational fact that undergirds all I know about me, my world and the great beyond that.  Believing that leads me to believe that I should need and want, above all else, to spend a significant amount of every day alone with Him.  I have no sense data that provides proof for anyone or me that the above is factually true but if you believe that He is it would be the depth of stupidity not to allow yourself to spend time alone allowing Him your undivided attention.  That is what I so desperately need, my attention undivided for Him. 

My greatest understanding of God is exceedingly personal, just Him and me.  I rarely venture outside that understanding.  The older I get the more important that understanding becomes for me because I seem less able to maintain a sustained time of being genuine, of being faithfully following and being with Him.  This might sound overly spiritual but it is nothing like that for me, it is more like me be honestly me and Him being completely Him and the two of us existing in a right relationship, Him God, me knowing Him thus and  He alone allowing me to know either of us.     

How I often feel I would be me without Him.