I Doubt

There are times when I live in doubt.  I consider the Biblical story to be unbelievable and heaven, an actual place where I will spend eternity in ecstasy, something absurd.  Why do I doubt?

-Spending too much time trying to intellectually understand God.  I once heard Adrian Rogers say that one should be careful about spending too much time trying to understand God because it will drive you crazy. 

-Tying my feelings to my belief; allowing my feelings to be the basis for my belief.

Cures I have found for my doubt:

-Physical obedience to His basic commands to love Him with all my heart, mind, soul and strength.  The word “physical” is critical here.  It means to actually get up, read and meditate on scripture (listening to Him) and pray with sincerity (talk to Him).  Practice the daily act of spending quality time developing a personal relationship with Him.  Do my part!

-Just don’t do it, just don't doubt.  This sounds simple but it is advice I often give students when they complain that their actions do not produce the desired result to which I respond, “Well don’t do that!”  When I doubt I just stop thinking about it.

-The last cure is tied directly to the first one, find someone to love and love them with physical acts, write them a letter, smile at them, visit them, help them, find a way to serve others and then do it. 

The last word of advise; don’t crucify yourself over your doubts, Christ already did that!

My sculpture "You're Doing Great"
modeled from a little clay piece Cora gave me.